yet again i have managed to make myself feel like shit again, i have no clue what to do either. I have such wonderful supportive friends, but all i can think about is what is behind me, what i have lost, what i can never have, and what i want the most, someone to love, someone to spend time with, but most of all something solid to hold close to me, that i can call my own and protect knowing that they feel safe with me, and that i would do anything for them.

That is the problem that i am facing at this time. My huge dilemma, my tragic play, my god Shakespeare would be proud of me…

I know it sounds corny but this is how i feel, and i don’t know what to do. I’m not even the emotional type, i couldn’t even cry at either of my grandparents funerals, i loved my grandpa with all my heart and this is what happens over something so trivial as being alone. Shows how strong i am right?

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